haizzzz

很努力的告诉自己。。别放在心上。。
但你要叫我如何不能不放在心上？

你叫我别投入整个心进去。。
但你又叫我如何做呢？

你叫我要小心。。
你叫我要注意。。
你叫我去挑他毛病。。
但谁又没有毛病呢？

你告诉我，他很关心我。。
他担心我。。
他觉得我变得不跟他说任何事情了。。。
他觉得我离他越来越远了。。
无可否认。。
我的确少和他说话了。。
我的却有点。。。
我也觉得有点对不起他。。
但就是不知道要怎样面对他。。
他是我最亲的人。。
也是我最陌生的。。
对不起，我不好。。
对不起，未能保护你反而伤了你。。
讲是没用的。。
这点我很清楚。。

is worth it, that's why

If you got the chance to choose, you waiting for a thing that will take you a thousands years to wait but it is worth it^^ or you take a sec just to have that thing but is not that precious to you...

I think for me... these questions always comes into my mind... Either one option you choose one...
But then got one guy come and ask... what for need to so suffer thinking? If you want both so much go take both la...
But then another one come and tell me... What for you want to think? deeply in your heart sure know which is the one that you want..

Some wants both like some people in this world wants everything...
Some don't know which one to choose... maybe is because scared to lose another ones?
Some people clearly know what they wants... and will go for it..

So if you ask me again...
Why you wanted to wait for a thing that takes long time to have it....
I will just answer..
This is what I choose, no matter how long it takes.. no matter how many challenge out there blocking my way... I won't give up that easily on it...
Cause now I know the thing that you decided to wait for it... must be the thing that you wanted for so long and you will think that it is worth it...

ps: to the ones that had comment on what people decided to choose... sometimes u give advise is enough ade... don't cross over the line... it will just cause more trouble jer... ni ka wa diam diam la....

Finally for the first time i go for a party...
("young adult party" not "kids birthday party"... i go for those thousands of times >o< )
hahaha^^
but a bit scared is that it is a Halloween party...
Which makes me wanted to chicken out~~ hahaha
Haiyo...
Have fun lo~~ all i can say~~ ^^

10 kinds of ppl that i met^^

did you met these kind of people before?
1. The one who act so friendly in front of you, but then keep on back stab on your back
    I met this many many times already... the only way to deal with them is ignore..
2. The one who say he/she loves you forever, but at the end he/she is the one who decided to leave you.
    Hate you!! haha^^ but wish you had a great life with them la^^ 
3. The one who scared to talk to you, because he/or she loves you^^
    ^^ hehehe to deal with them is to make they talk more^^
4. Te one who always talk crab..
    haha^^ talk crab back to them la^^
5. The one who always point out your mistakes.
    accept it and solve it^^ then say thx to them^^
6. The one who always take good care of you.
    thx very much^^ and be sure to take care of them oso^^
7. The one that always need your help^^
    ^^ donno y i feel happy to help the ppl who wants my help.. but sometimes... i need to do other things... and sorry that i ignore you all sometimes...
8. The one who need you to give advise.
    Glad to help^^
9. The one that help you out a lot..
    I appreciated it ^^ and thx a lot^^ love you^^
10. The one who always stand beside you no matter what happen^^
       I love you~~^^ love the ones who stand by my side always^^

happy birthday^^

happy birthday~~
hope friday can see you~~
miss you already lo~~
hahaha^^
nite nite^^

haha^^
today ling wei come and told me..
she so shy to look at my blog jor~~
haha^^
sry yea ling wei~~
^^
Me so shy too when u said that to me^^
I try not to spam so much of those on here^^ hahahaha^^
^^

Btw
happy birthday to safiyah^^ the only junior that i know well than the other junior...
and Happy birthday to husky~~^^
love you^^ wish you all de best^^

蔡健雅 - 無底洞MV

 

Do you ever listen to this song before?

The first time i "pak tor" and "sat lun" 

I listen to this and i cried out loud..

And this is when i love tanya's song so much^^

I cried when i listen to this...

Because that time i still cant forget my first...

But then for 5 years i keep listen to this...

The first year which is the year i pecah with him... i cried like i never had the chance to cry again...

The second year.. i cry because i miss he so much..

The third year.. is suddenly reminds me of him ....

The forth year.. is because of his present he gave me..

The fifth year... i throw it away.. and i cried again...

But then after these years... 

I listen back to this song

I still cry...

Just in the middle of june i think...

I cry coz of you!!!! not my first nor my ex.....

Si yeh....><

but then now i listen to it...

i still cry....

coz of my behavior...

since when i so stupid..

But then now i can say....

you are already stuck in my mind jor^^

And i cant seem to get you out...

hehehehe

ahahha^^ love the song ^^ a mei^^
I think less people listen to this...
I wanted to share on fb..
but hor....
the mv hor....
><
alamak... don dare lo....
so...
post on here^^ ahahha^^

張惠妹(阿密特)-相愛後動物感傷MV ps: under 18 cannot watch...

^^ these days....

The biggest problem i had right now is think too much...
>< i think, just every action you did i will think of something bad..
Since when i become like this?
Is it because i don't feel any secure from you?
Or i just scared to lose you?
I try to close my eyes and ears and pretend not to know anything...
Since when i ask you...
You sure can defense yourself...
Is it because you already plan what to do next after that?
Or you didn't did anything, only me who are crazy bout thinking of something...
Aiyo...
Aduhai...
I don't like like this lah...
That is why now..
i know i must stay away from all negative thinking and back the old me...
At least i will be happy that way...^^
That is why... I love you ^^
I love you all~~
I come here is for study!!
I come here is to have fun hang out with you guys^^
I in this family is because i am one of it..
I be with you is because you are the one i pick from thousand to love with^^
I am in this world..
I am me..
^^
and i want the people around me~~
feel happy too^^
So please don't cry~~
Please don sad or sigh...
Please don be angry~~
^^ I will do my best to be with you^^
I will do my best to make you happy^^
k^^
:) smile always^^

Something serious happen to me... but i wonder what it is...coz it make me say things like this...

After listening to that song..(Olivia Ong- rose)

  Feels like there is a lot of things that use to be sad happen to us.. but now feels relief because that we had already been through all of that... Although there is still have many things similar to this (sadness, bad, stress, pain....) are waiting for us in the future... But as the time goes by.. we will grown up... we will know how to handle things like this in a matured way....

I think this is why god creates us as human being... 

We are born, 

We will get old, 

We will get sick, 

We will die..

We learned how to avoid things, 

We learned how to protect ourself..

Later...

People will just wanted to become like a kid..

No need to care this and that, be free always..

But then this is not the way things should be...

We need to overcome every single things and problem we had in life..

Sometimes might get stuck and lost..

But then sooner or later, for sure there is a light shinning through from the window and light up your way..

leads and guide you to the right path...

Some people might just ignore the light...

That is why they are lost and get stuck...

Open up your eyes, try to see at things in another point of view..

you might get some surprise from it too^^

Olivia Ong - The Rose

love you^^

hey~~

no matter what happen to you...

You are still the "you" i know^^

no matter what people says..

no matter what bad tings happen...

I like the way you are^^

I love the way we hang out...

I adore just the way you are

To my beloved friends, family and my love^^

No matter what happen on you all...

I'll do my best to protect you..

I'll do my best to comfort you^^

I'll be there always^^

Love you 

^^

husky~~~~~~~~~~
calling~~~~~~~~~~
husky~~~~~~~~~~
come come~~~~~~
hahaha^^

these days~~

I always think everything will be fine before i start my work..
but now for the first time... i think this work of mine.. doesn't work...><

I always think positive..

on every work that I haven't start..

but now..

is different..

don't know why...

I feel uneasy...

and somehow I feel like it is not going to work..

><

For the first time i heard that rumor...

For the first time i heard people said that...

For the first time I care bout it...

After that day,

I walked back home..

and I can't seems to forget what you said...

But these doesn't important anymore...

since this is how you look at me..

I had nothing to do with it...

and I won't do anything on it..

is your problem if you still bother bout it...

For the first time i plan birthday...

husky...><

I am a bad planner aren't I?

haha^^

but anyways you had fun...

then is nice to me already^^

happy birthday^^

hehehe^^

(although u haven't birthday yet..)

hehe

alamak~~

pretty nervous on this saturday.... >< hope everythings works fine...
alamak~~ i havent plan anything yet...>
First time celebrate bf's birthday....
u should be proud of it...wahahahaha^^
But i donno how to celebrate le...
huhuhu.... eat only lo... haizz...
present... don have oso... mati la saya...
><
huhuhuhu

^^

Did i ever mention that i really scared of ghost?
Husky ar~~ save me~~
Huhu... i really really scared of it..
Really!!
Please~~
Huhuhu... scared ar.....
Why like that le...

Somebody told me...
If your bf (husky) is really good to you...
Don't ever let he go....
^^
I will de la^^ fang xin^^
Another one said to me...
If he is not good to you..
Let he go immediately...
>
hahaha^^

Really... to find one who can speak out what is on my mind is hard to find...
Husky ar.... hehe^^
But i don't really see wat is in you le...
is it because I am the person who don't observe that much?
sorry le... husky...>< 

cat vs dog^^ hahahaha

monday^^

tuesday TT

wednesday^^

thursday TT

friday =))

hehehe^^ 

smile face is when i see u^^

sad face is when i miss u TT

hello hello^^

u there ar?

hehehe :P 

miao~~

need u lo~~~

 we two are bossy^^

u are my boss.......><

i am ur boss!!!

bwahahahahahha^^

so cute le~~~ hehe

heheheh^^

hahaha^^

是不是拥有了就会心淡呢？

一个又一个，都是这样。。

我遇到的人怎么都是这样。。

前两个。。。

现在这个。。 没这样。。会吗？你会吗？

我希望不会。。

但如果是的话。。。

那就算了。。。

哈哈哈哈。。

勉强没幸福的。。

呵呵呵。。

对不对~~husky hor。。。^^

最近怎么那么多人以为我很笨呢？

以为我笨到不会想些逻辑的事。。

我能说我是有点笨。。

但不自于本道会做一些伤害自己的事。。

有些就已为我会为爱情做笨的事。。

拜托。。我在你眼里真的那么笨吗？

知道你是出自于关心。。但也别讲到我时那么消极的人好吗。。

我在你眼里是这样吗？

有人说我是一个siao ka

对我是。。

但也别说我是一个彻底的siao ka。。

我也很真经的。。。

只是你还没看到我认真的样子而已。。

你一定吓到傻。。

有人说，只怕万一我会做出那种十六十五岁会做的傻事。。

自寻短见。。。

=。=lll

erm。。。

我在你眼里是那种笨蛋吗？

我活得好好的。。

不管是什么原因。。

不管什么人。。

不管我多么的伤心。。

我都不会去厌恶这个世界。。

也不会厌恶自己。。

只会觉得自己这吃错了。。

然后从那里吸取教训。。

我一生人最讨厌的，就是那些自寻死路，自寻短见的人！！

给我遇到的话我一定把他骂到够够力！！

你说我会去做这种事吗？

我就有一个朋友。。

大概以为我是能开这种玩笑的人。。

他好死不死跑来跟我说女朋友不要他，他要死。。

还用那种又要哭，又要撑的语气。。（整个死狗这样）

我直接骂到他够够力。。。

他吓到。。目瞪口呆的看着我。。

然后要死不死的跟我说。。

对不起。。以后都不敢这样开玩笑了。。。

明天就看着我然后。。

笑笑的说。。

昨天对不起。。但也谢谢你。。

：）

所以。。

我也许是那种情绪化很强的女生。。

也许是那种sudah sot的女生。。

但绝对不是笨的女生 ：）

但也不是很聪明。。

却知道，做人的道理。。

粗鲁一点说句

你啊妈生出来，是要你生存在这个既世界的。。

而不是叫你放弃自己去死的。。

这样的话，她生你出来干吗？

请记住这个。。

=)

husky~~~~
husky~~~~
almost ur birthday jor~~~
hehehe^^

越拉越不知道该怎么对你。。
很乱啊。。。
以为你会思考关于那天的事。。
谁知你转头对说我已经忘了。。。
你这个人怎么这样。。。><

是我乱说话了吗？
怎么你都没上线？
电话又不回。。。
简讯又不回。。。
早上对你说了些大家都不想听，大家都想逃避的事。。
但，我却觉得越是逃避。。
这件事只会越闹越大。。
实时候做决定了。。。
我们拖了很久。。

今天走路回家。。
幸好那辆车走得慢。。
不然。。。
在lrt里我找了个位子坐下。。
想了很久。。
是不是不应该说出口。。
是不是我错了。。
我是不是太一厢情愿了。。
我是不是逼得你太紧了？

不管怎样。。
我知道你一定知道自己要的是什么。。
不管结果如何。。我都会自持的
不管你给的答案如何。。。。。。。。。。。

是我作的决定！！
不管对或错。。
我都得承担一切到最后的^^

NI KA WA DIAM DIAM LA^^

To all the people i know....^^
This is not complaining or hating someone...
just....
Sometimes I felt that somebody is trying to reject me or avoiding me...
I know sometimes I am so annoying...
If you feel that way... then i am sorry...

Cause I know the feeling of been annoyed and get annoyed.....
sometimes i also cant stand it... xDD

To the people who think i am not serious at all...
HELLO... if you really think me that way..
then you are wrong...
I am damn serious when i doing on something...
I am damn serious and won't let anything to get into my way when i doin a certain things..
so.... don say to me "bobo ar.. can u be more serious on this annot..."
I always fool around people when is free time or when i feel i wanted to..
but when come to serious method...
please don't come and tell me "bobo!! please stop playing!!"
If you don't know how serious i am on my things... please don't say i am not serious!!

To people who are closer to me...
Sometimes i might be angry and not in the mood...
and start to ignore some of you...
i am sorry for that...
really really sorry ><
I really appreciated everyone of you....
so ....
sorry if you being annoyed by me...
if you are angry of me...
you can come and scold me ><
sorry sorry...><

ye ying^^
love you^^ sorry for less hanging out with u jor....
and sometimes i geram a bit...>< sorry^^ love you^^

suh mei^^
sorry and love you^^ sometimes cant help you...
sorry sorry....^^ and love you^^

happy :)

Just one answer from you..
happy jor^^ hehehe

guess i start become sot again^^ hahahaha

siberian husky^^

其实。。
认识了你之后。。我发觉我还蛮笨的。。
你的知识比我多。。你的想法比我成熟。。
你的做风痹我谨慎。。你的谈吐比我稳重。。

所以我觉得。。你能教我很多。。
呵呵^^由于我们都来自不同世界的人。。
想法就没那么的一致了。。
你觉得马来西亚没得救了。。
你觉得自己能承担一切。。
你觉得你能完成一样东西在很短的时间。。
你觉得自己吸取的知识还不够。。
所以，你会飞。。飞到你的梦想。。

哈哈。。到那时不知道会怎样。。
但我终究不是很会看远方的人。。
我只知道，就算你飞了。。
但只要有着美好的回忆。。
就够了~~

听起来你和我好像不是很称
但我们就掩盖掉了对方的缺点。。
你的成熟。。和我的天真。。
你的经验。。和我的突发奇想。。
两个就这样补来补去的。。
你帮了我很多很多。。
我却让你戒掉你的坏习惯。。

记得有几次，我说了一些话你笑了。。
那笑容中时忘不了的。。
呵呵。。
也记得有几次。。你弄到我脸红到不像人一样。。。
而我却一直坚持自己没脸红。。你听了。。又笑了。。。

你的生日就快到了。。
十月二十八。。
但未能在整日陪你度过。。
十月二十三
不见不散咯~~

完蛋了  〉。〈
我该做什么呢？
我该准备什么？
完蛋咯。。。
第一次陪男友过生日le~~
我的前度男友都没有庆祝过。。。
alamak!!!

我应该忘了所有。。

专心的。。全心全意地，做我的功课！！

I should forget bout everything,

and only focus on my works...

乱了思绪。。

为何我总是伤心的那个？
为什么，当我觉得我得到了一切。。
就那几个小时。。
我什么都没了？
朋友，爱情，家人。。
所有的感情。。思绪。。全部都乱了。。

越是靠近，就越容易失去。。
越是懂得，越是迷糊。。
当我懂了。。我又能怎样?
我该往哪个方向走？
我该做什么？
我又能改变什么？

你。。
怎么那么的残忍？
怎么能这么好。。
好到我都忘了你的坏。。
但怎么我刚知道，你的种种坏事。。
不是伤心，反而是想办法对付你。。
而现在却在伤心。。

我对你来说，到底是什么？
你对我来说又是什么？

"u will be lonely forever"

this time...
i really learn from my mistakes.. and i know that what to do now..
haha...
just like what he say..
"u will be lonely forever wan..."
no matter how... i knows it ade.... so i wont be hurt that hard anymore..
i fall once...
i know where to get up...

But one thing very different...
is that i knows where to get up..
and i know where to make u fall..
just wait and see...
you now might be happy...
but once u pick me and fool with me..
i don't think u will survive that easily!!

just let me fall hardly.. just to wake me up

if there have anything chg...
which means u are lying...

i believe you
that is y i don ask much on you bout that...
but now..
because of my curiosity that u said "if i log in u will know..."
and now all ur secret reveal..
what a good job.. that u hiding all these shit behind me...

i got so many question...
><
why u know that there have most of ur stupid lies... but u still tell me how to log in?
why u make me so curious bout it??
why u say if i login the same time with u...u say u will know?
why u lie all these shit to me?
why i still think these shit is fake?
i am super angry now..
and i donno wat to do...
but then...
why i don feel any pain?
why after i finish reading all ur stupid lies...
the first thing is stun... then think of a way to revenge on you?
am i that scary? or i ady don feel the way i feel for u in the first time?

i need to drunk myself again.....><

lies...

no wonder people said the world is round...
what u did wrong on the others..
god will see.. and payback on you....
hurt...

Hope there were a thousands of beer for me to drunk myself completely...
then i can speak out what ever is on my mind that easily...
then i won't keep it for myself.... which make myself suffer more and more.

Why? i now only know...
Why? you use to be and angel... but then today i saw the real you..
Why? you can act in front of me so naturally...
Why? i still think this is not you?
you...
all your lies had start to reveal....
but why? i still giving you chances again and again?
don talk to me for a while...
i don't want to think bout you...
><
please get rid of my mind...
now and forever....

and i wont let you be so happy lying to me like this...
i make sure u feel 10x the pain i am now...
and what you left... is nothing...
is a payback...
i guarantee it....
coz i wont let people hurt me the same way again...
and i wont just crying at a corner...
and get hurt but seeing u so happy there...

猫狗大战 ^^

哈哈^^ 

听到你说 “明天见” 

我就会莫名其妙地笑了一下

今天真的很累。。因为不见了重要的东西所以跑上跑下。。

到现在都还没找到，haizz。。心情很差。。又生气自己多么的粗心大意。。

放弃了。。回家。。然后就sms他

"ft... i reach asia jaya only know all my pass gone... go back and look for it oso don have...huhuhu"

"where are u now?"

"goin back kelana jaya station...ft..."

之后，回到家，妈妈爸爸就骂了我。。怎么这么粗心大意？不是叫你看好来吗？之类的话。。

心情更差。。冲了凉。。开电脑。。上fb

“嗨，你现在怎样了?还好吗？”〈〈〈〈 翻译成华语

“还是找不到。。讨厌自己这样。。haizz。。”

“别这样。。找过班上了吗？”

“找了没有。。”

“路边呢？”

“找了我走过的地方。。都没有。。”

 “那附近一带呢？它可能飞掉了。。因为很轻啊。。”

“怎么可能？”

“ft 你啊。。好啦明天陪你去找。。”

“我自己找就好啦。。你明天有课！！”

“ft 是哦。。嗯。。。我去啦。。。”

“oo ^^”

“去帮你找你的东西”

"haiyo...去上课啦你。。。不用来！！"

“不用劝我。。你得更重要。。而且很快就能好的。。”

“。。。。”

我无话可说。。。 哈哈。。心还蛮甜一下。。 〉〈

“就这样说定啦^^明天照旧在老地方见。。平时的时间。。”

“oo。。。”

“^^”

"那你的课到底是几时开始的？"

“这你不用担心。。拜三我会拿到所有的笔记。。”

“你还是不要来啦。。课比较重要。。”

“都说不要跟我说这个咯。。我要去。。k。。”

“oo。。。”

ps：希望明天能找到。。。
-husky vs kitty- 
feel sweet anyways.... haha^^

越来越乱，越来越模糊，越来越陌生。。

不论在哪方面，家，学校，情人。。

我好像站在十字路口。。人来人往。。

但我就只是站在中间，动都不动的。。

就这样放空了。。

昨天，去喝了别人的喜酒。。也去庆祝我婆婆的大寿。。

有些让我觉得很无奈的是发生。。

我又那么得难以融入吗？

还是我们都来自不同的世界？所以你会这样。。。

新的学期在9月27号已经开始了。。

现在才打上来blog这里。。 呵呵。。

功课就像以前一样。。多得像座山一样。。

haizz。。看见朋友们一个个都勤劳了起来。。

就我还是一样懒洋洋的。。

一拖再拖。。

haizz。。

就情人嘛。。

哈哈。。

haizz。。

终于，就在我酒后乱乱说话。。

我们竟然。。

好像很儿戏，很不切实际，又很虚的感觉。。

haizz。。

不知道啊~~~

人生。。。。。 =。=ll

something i don't even know!!

did you ever feel everything is running way to fast?
although everything running this way...
don't know why i feel like i stop at one stop, starring at something...
something that doesn't help at all...
something that are so annoying...
something that i am not familiar with...
something i even don't know what it is...
this "something" has distracted me completely...
i can't focus...
still drowning on that "something" kinds of illusion...
haizz....
what are you (something)....
is not a person nor a thing that i like...
a feeling? an illusion? a nightmare?
wat are u...><

Time to work la....
Wake up la!!!
Stop blogging la....>< haiyo.....