Feel like drinking half dozen of beers tonight..

let me drunk myself completely....

hehe^^ new sem.... new start

hahaha^^
finally update my blog.... i think most of my classmates now is struggling on their works... but i am that lazy.... not motivated to do my works... died..... hahha^^ but anyways.. i will start it as soon as possible^^ haha

haizz... finally^^ i with my husky ^^ haha is good or bad.... i also donno... and i don't wanna think that way.. don't care... guess i back to the old me i think^^ haha but anyways... these days at coll my face get red easily.. not angry but blushing...>< first husky he always make me blushing jor... then back to class.. my lao po... my friends even my lect..... haiyo....><

BTW.... Anyways...^^ thanks for all your wishes and bless^^ hehe^^

:P

LOVE YOU

husky^^

favourite place for now + favourite things~~

mph~~~lalala~~

my favorite place for now...

don't know y...

ice cream~~

mph~~

dancing machine~~

para para~~

A'nW

chocolate~~

>< ar>< 

my god><

movie~~ hehe~~

lrt

ktm

>w<

Well this is what you say..

"I don't wanted to promise you anything now.. cause I haven't settle anything..."

"I don't want to hurt you by breaking the promise i made to you"

Which means I need to wait for you....

isn't it rite..??

how long?

you are going to fly soon you know....

how long can i wait?

how long you will take?

and why i sounds so desperate?

haha...

fine then...

i don't want to care jor..

haha^^

ur hand are on my waist...

u hold my hands...

u lean ur head on my shoulder...

u comb my hair...

u.....

argh>< 

paiseh jor >< haiyo>< 

i don wan say jor><

these days...

hey...

i really get mess up now...

i thought that i really forget bout you...

but yet...

haha...

anyways...

that feeling i had for you already decrease..

really..

i don't want to lie to myself nor to you...

but what ever i felt right now it really doesn't matter to me...

it matters to you...

but not me...

(somehow i feel that i said these are lying to myself.....><)

get it out...

get out from my life^^

walau...

got one guy...

really really...

i don know how to respond...

he say i look cute (no i don think so)

he say i look sexy (=.= wtf!!!)

he say can he do ..... (@.@ tat is it!!! wtf!!!)

WTH la this guy!!!

MA.DE.DIAO.NI.LA.

walau =.=llll

not going to think much^^

this is my life btw... with or without you... i still can live^^

k..
is better we be like this..
i m pretty happy that u feel guilty... (thoughts from de evil me)
haha^^
no matter how..
now is up to you..
you wanted to be happy or sad is up to you..
k....

but to think back..... what had i done to you?..
you looks like you are in a big problem..
you looks like you are facing a major thing..
but then the way you said things to me is like you were escaping..
this is not the one i know..
so not you...

for some reason..
after i said things like this to you... i really feel release by something..
but then look at you...
you are like you are in a big problem...

although i feel like release by something..
the price is high..
i know that after i said this to you we sure like this..
that is why i kept it..
but that night..
because of that drink..
i let it out..
and now..
we are more like a strangers..
we are like we just met each other..
no... worst than that too..
we can't even find any topic to talk with..
we can't even chat like we used to be..
we can't even...
all things turn wrong and out of control in just one night..


life is full of surprise..
and i hate these kinds of surprise

Don't ever get urself drunk

Don't ever get urself drunk.. cause u might not know wat u going to do... when u got drunk...

now... troubles that i made... i can't even control it..

is like i m the trouble of all the things...

i am not that me anymore...

and i am nothing but a rubbish to you...

i am the extra..

an optional...

a thing that you don't even wanted to care ...

if you care...

i am here to tell you..

please abandon me..

cause the situation that we are being now..

there are only 2 ways..

one is you abandon me along the roadside...

one is you accepted me, but abandon the one that you choose on the first time...

both of it... is hurting...

either one of us will be hurt...

but y don't you let go of me..

and let me take all this?

if i m not drunken...

i wouldn't said anything bout that to you...

cause i know it is impossible...

and make things worst...

is fair to let me have all the sorrow and sadness..

and i am so sorry for what i did...

sorry for everything i did...

things had change...

we can't talk like we used to be..

we can't chat like we used to be...

we can't play like we used to be too...

u... had the wright to choose...

and i had the wright to wait...

but even thought u haven't make ur choice..

i think i know the answer...

if there is a miracle happening..

please happen on the person who needed it the most..

if the angels are kind..

please don't let me walk in heaven..

i don't deserve to walk into nor in front the gate of heaven..

if i never said that to you..

you will never knows...

and we will be like our same pattern..

if i tell you bout that...

at least you knows..

at least i had no regrets...

跟你讲话简直是贬低自己。。

骂你粗口简直是浪费口水。。。=。=

脾气再好的人都给你弄到吐血。。

try let me saw u walking on the street or try come and talk rubbish to me again.. u sure become a dead man !! 

fuck you!!  mcb.. cjb...

finally i change everything, too sad all are still in the same theme.. which is the things i love the most.. lights^^ night lights^^ 

how to say, they makes me feel relax in a way.. and i love it very much^^...

hey.. i wonder, since when i keep on crying for people that hurts me so much... but now, i wont be crying for people like this.. (hope so) but i will cry for the time i wasted just for you in my life...

life is really short, and why i wasted most of the time living in sadness and tears? i should forget bout you and her.. but i still will kept that nice memories of ours..

memories, there are many people around the world.. but there is only a part of it is involving with you.. at this moment: 

who you miss the most?

who you love the most?

for me, as time goes by, these answer for these 2 question always change... how bout you?

haha^^ never been this happy before... ya... right... ^^ feel release by something... feel free~~ lala~~but in the same time.. lonely is approaching... haha... come beat me....

^w^

that kind of feeling^^
for the first time i feel it^^
is like a released^^
life is good though^^
enjoy it..
cry for it...
live for it^^
yes^^

no more tears for you...
but for the time i wasted in my life...

女生没男朋友的16大好处

1、周末可以放心睡懒觉，不必费心准备约会。

2、早起可以不化妆，不用担心男友嫌弃。

3、在大街上可以到处看看英俊的男子，让自己的审美跟得上潮流。

4、可以放心大胆的商场的促销活动，不必担心被如海的人潮将自己男朋友冲到天涯海角，更不用看男友不满意的脸色。

5、帅哥照片可以满屋子挂，管他韩国、日本或美国。

6、寿命可以延长，不必做男朋友大男子主义的出气筒。

7、可以安心上网，不必担心再有谁跟你抢夺上网权，或者不说不喜欢你上网。

8、有利于节约金钱，不必再担心买给自己的衣服和买给男朋友的衣服成反比例涵数。

9、有利于节约时间，不用每周都有那么几天想和男朋友在一起，不用担心男友的所处位置而打电话寻找。

10、节约大量的电话费，不用担心看到电话费单时再有想晕倒的欲望。

11、大量节约口水，不用因为太爱对方而变的小心翼翼的询问爱情问题“你爱不爱我？”，“你到底爱不爱我！！！！”。

12、可以有更多的空闲陪伴父母，不必担心有人会抱怨“你最爱的人不是我”。

13、可以随意和姐妹通宵畅谈，KTV，不用担心男朋友不喜欢！

14、可以专心的工作学习，不必担心怠慢“某人”会招来第三次世界大战伤及无辜。

15、可以用更开阔的视野来看这个世界，不必将眼神聚焦在一个人的身上。

16、还有最重要的是没有男朋友的话就拥有了无限可能，可以今天和张三吃饭，明天和李四看电影，后天和王麻子逛街……单身的女子身边不会缺少倾慕的男子。

kakakaka>< hahaha^^

回到三岁小孩了。。

对你来说一点也不公平。。
对你来说这只是纪念品。。
对她来说可能这是分离。。
对我来说。。
你。。是。。
你是。。。
她是。。。
而我。。。

总而言之。。
我这样的处事态度，只会伤害我爱的人，和爱我的人。这样的我是否要孤独终老，才不会伤害身边的人呢？是不是上帝给我的惩罚？是不是我之前对你做了什么坏事，现在你来报复呢？是不是我这种人。。

不管了。。。你。。。我。。。你。。。她。。。我们四个。。。都应该是过客吧。。。认识了就好了。。
你是多么的遥远。。
你是不会回头的。。。
她是不知名的。。
我。。。
是什么？？

是时候对自己诚实。。

还想再骗谁？我还能怎样去骗谁？骗到全世界的人又怎样？还不是一样过不到自己。。
说不想你。。骗的。。说不需要你。。装的。。说没关系。。假的。。
我们这样的关系。。能维持多久？这样只会让我觉得自己像陌生人一样。。
另一头的自己却像一个第三者一样。。
另一头的自己却有孤孤单单。。
另一头又好像被你打入冷宫一样。。

我知道这样的自己，好像在虐待自己一样。。
虐待着自己的心灵。。
虐待到我都无法形容。。

这样的你。。
那样的你。。
如此而已。。
有时真的很想大声地喊。。
有时却像要回到那时的我们。。
有时却又忘不了的你。。
但一想到你，就有一种莫名的思想。。告诉自己。。别靠近。。

对着这样的你。。
我好像变成了很多的自己。。
我可以告诉你。。
我想终结这一切吗？
你。。
你。。
两个。。
够了。。
我厌倦了你们了。。
我。。
就让我跌入谷底。。
别靠近我吧。。

明天很想自己去散心。。
自己兜兜风。。
让自己冷静。。
让自己清醒。。

慢慢。。
开始以为我能够。。
但。。
仔细想。。
我还是一样。。
这种。。
这样的自己。。
真的很讨厌。。

tell tell.. pls tell...

tell me...
when i can reach you...
tell me...
when i can see you....
tell me...
when you are coming....
tell me...
when...
when...

tell me...
what is up with you...
tell me...
what are you doing recently...
tell me...
what am i to you....
tell me....
what is wrong with you...
tell me...
what...
what is happening...

tell me...
why you still doing it...
tell me...
why you still not coming...
tell me...
why...
why...

tell me.. more ... pls...
i am tired of guessing...
tell me..
^^ pls^^