First time kena bully and sked until cry in office T^T sob sob~~

huhuhuh dar~~~~ T^T dar~~~ T^T

越讲越乱~XD

Befor I type this post... SHAL~~~ hehehehehe You can't read le this time XD lelelele XD blek blek 

曾有人问我：“为什么你这样的男生都要？他又肥。。人缘又不好。。你那么向往爱情哦？你那么恨不得嫁出去哦？” 之类类的话。。

也有人常常问我，你拍过几次拖？erm。。老实说，puppy love算吗？算的话。。那么就。。erm.... 5次酱？不算的话，就三次咯。。XD..

帅哥也是人，不帅的也是人。。但我的一些朋友说怎样不帅都好，一定要顺眼。。erm。。不是批评，但你的顺眼也是有一定的要求。。erm。。但对我而言，我又不漂亮~又不像别人说的那种又瘦又高。。哈哈~~还挑剔什么呢？只要两个人的火花 "TAT JIOK" jor.. 不管他是肥过你或者坏过你。。你都会飞奔过去吧？

我不是可望爱情才去爱的人。。可能在你的眼里我是吧？但我知道自己不是。。哈哈~~不管你认不认同~~XD我坚持我不是。。哈哈~~

如果你说我向往有个很梦幻的爱情。。erm。。我会吧。。多多少少都会吧。。但不是那种什么白马王子那种。。hehe~~我得说出来会吓死人~~XD 最好别说~~XD

曾经我爱过一个还蛮帅的学长，过不久我们就开始了，但不到两个礼拜就分了。。哈哈~~因为被他背叛。。所以我狠下心分手了。。后来，我的死党他跑来表白。。我也不好意思退掉他所以接受了。。我还以为我能日久生情。。但，他说他要地下情。。我开头还傻傻的答应。。还说没问题。。现在回想起来，那时惹人厌的我，和那么受欢迎的他在一起的是若传出去相信他会觉得没面子吧？不懂，分手过后听了好多的版本。。有人说他去找人倾诉。。有有人说他哭得像宝宝一样。。但我们隔天见面他确是嬉皮笑脸的跟别的女生玩得很开心。。然后当我透明=。=

上了学院，也慢慢的接触上网这个东东。。也开始网恋起来~ 但也从此让我对网恋彻底失望。。开始认识他就在玩online game 那里~~我们天天玩到三更半夜都不想关。。后来却慢慢的不联络了。。后来才知道他和其他女生开始约会~那时我对他还算有好感所以也因此而伤心。。但后来，他却跑来跟我倾诉，他女友不再理他了。。它可真会挑时间。。那时的我晕晕的~~开始语无伦次。。隔天才发现我晕晕的时候向他表白@.@!!!然后我就变成了他们的小三。。=。= 那时真的是。。。有够无奈的。。所以就拒绝它所有的邀请直到他说他分了。。我们在一起不久，他就在外面搞三搞四的，还经常怨我心机重，疑心病重。。摆脱，你出轨的那样明显。我只是暗示你我知道，然后想要你不要这样。。反而发我脾气走掉。。好咯~~最后尽然搞到我老婆那里。。忍无可忍。。分就分。。谁叫我老婆当时也喜欢你。。算，反正那时的你只当我是替代品，只是一个填满你空虚日子的玩具。。

在别人以为我过得好好的时候。。豆腐出现了^^ 他是唯一看穿我还很伤心的。。因为当时，我还跟那个人渣拍拖的时候，他暗恋了某个人担忧没人察觉~ 我们当时都看穿了对方~~也慢慢地从朋友升级成gor gor mui mui （才五天哦~）哈哈~~就这样我们安慰来安慰去的。。慢慢就 "TAT JIOK" 了~~ XD 但我们的路好难走。。T^T 可是hehe~~我不会放弃的~~

hmmm。。难走的原因~~可能我们算是其中一个非一般人能接受的恋情吧？看到我们在一起的人可能说我瞎了？但我是那种不管你的样子是怎么样，只要我们两个是喜欢对方的，是关心对方的。。那就好了~~的那种吧？哈哈~~爱就对了~ ^.^管它是什么宗族，管他的样子是帅是丑~ 我觉得是他就是他~ ^.^

我不望什么，钱。。我们一起赚。。肥？我们一起剪吧~~ 浪漫，我们一起沙滩漫步吧~~XD 总而言之~你是你~~就可以了~^^

hehehehe been request to let colleague see my tofu face XD hahahaha okie okie 

hahahahaha XD blek blek XD hahahhahahaha XD

next time if can i bring he come see u all lu XD hahahahahaha

Be patient kk ^^ 

The best of nana~~ The best for me~~

Travel to the moon - you sleep, solving a dream
Controlling the light of the deserted stars

The smile you forgot in order to be stronger
Together, I'm sure we can find it again

Please realize
I'm here waiting for you
Even if the future is different from now
I'm here waitong for you
I'll keep shouting
I'm sure my heart is pulling in the string connecting us
So the me of that time will awaken
No need to cry

Travel in silence - if I reach out, I can touch you
But you're so far away inside my memories

If I close my eyes, I can hear your voice
Even a little pain is precious

Look at me
I'm here waiting for you
Though you're lost and blowing in the wind
I'm here waiting for you
Look up at the sky
My heart is always protecting you with arms spread wide
Until the you of that time turns around
No need to cry

(Feel something, feel nothing
Listen closely, listen closely)
Wide open ears
Disarm the dream tickler
In the constant moment
(You will find me where it's quiet
Listen closely, listen closely)
Let the blood flow
Through all the spaces
Of the universe

Please realize
I'm here waiting for you
Even if the future is different from now
I'm here waitong for you
I'll keep shouting
I'm sure my heart is pulling in the string connecting us
So the me of that time will awaken
No need to cry 

emoing~~~

Am I annoying?
I know I always said things wrongly without even noticing.. Somehow it hurts people feelings.. I only realized it when people start to be quiet and start changing subject.. Did I hurt you with my words? Sorry... I didn't mean to hurt you anyway..
So...
Tell me...
Am I that annoying to you?
Why I'm annoying anyway?
donno....

XD woosh... now not emo le~~ ^^

Random again and again XD

^^ Yesterday play with family till sot sot ade ^^ haha And I found out that I'm quite manja de oh XD hahahaha blek blek XD

At Work...

Boss not here XD hahaha and is so free~~ "free" not mean that no work to do.. but free to be loud and play in the office XD wahahahaha let me introduce my funny colleague in the office ^^ 

Shal... On the first day saw her... she is so beautiful @.@!!! hahaha as days goes by she is super funny and love to tease people ^^ hahaha

Catie... haha Another cute cute de colleague ^^ and sexy too.. @.@!!! leng lui nia XD when shal and catie get together.. haha there is always laughter XD hahaha

Alwin.. hmmm... A man who looks young.. XD and was extremely funny... He always love to tease Catie.. hahaha And was super funny.. 

Chow Chow..  This woman arrr... keep teasing me de lo T^T sob sob XD but without her.. my life would be bored... T^T And I'll get lost too... so... Love you mei mei ^^ p/s: if you din tease me I love you more oh XD hahahahaa

But when come to work.. They're super possessional @.@!! And fast at work ~.~ huhuh admire nia~~ haha

Lao po
Ying ying arrr... sob sob miss you arr... haizz... can't wait college faster reopen... then we can play till crazy and you can tell me what happen to you le ^^
Chow chow arrr... Everything will be fine~~ I'll be right here supporting you always...
Christina + ying ying arrr..... huhuhu sob sob busy busy days... and can't even go out with you guys.. sorry T^T 

Carol arrr... Eeee XD with Joseph liao~~~ finally ^^ congrats to both of you ^^ but don't know why when I first heard you guys together.. I got a sad feeling.. eee... @.@!!! donno ^^ but now glad you two together le ^^ eee.. If Joseph bully lao po tell me kk.. @.@!!!

Tofu~~~

Hehehehe... Can't wait for Saturday oh oh XD hahahahaha take care at work k ^^ love you^^

P/s: Wish everybody happy.. and healthy... ^^

The feeling is getting stronger and stronger everyday...
Every words..
Every move...
Everything he did...
The feelings getting stronger and stronger..

Some people might asked.. Why you choose him?
Some people might think.. You are not the one for him... or he don deserve to have you...
Or even something worst...

But... but... don't know why he is the one..
People tend to tell me not to choose him because of his background or even outlooks la~~ or something else...
But what they see is the outside.. the surface..
What I see is the inside..
I believe that..
I believe..
I trust... from the bottom of my heart..

我们加油吧~♥

Just read one of my college friends blog.. hahaha
waaa... He so cute... I mean the way he said things la.. but my tofu cuter ^^ hahaha
暗恋，本来就是很辛苦的事情。。哈哈~~我明白。。
自己会不知觉的默默付出给对方，这点我就很佩服他了。。
那些我暗恋过的人，我都没像他一样付出的那么多。。可能我是女生他是男生？
haiz。。以一个旁观者来看，他还蛮可怜的。。
因为我很明白她的心和她的立场。。
我跟这位朋友不算很熟，但就是因为她的原应我们才会说一两句。。
这种感觉，很熟很熟。。

以前的事就不提了，都过去了。。就让它过去。。
伤我的人谢谢你，因为如果不是你那样的觞我，我也不会遇到呵护及对我好的人。。
我也就不会领悟到，这世间是多么的险恶。。
呵护我的人，爱我的人，谢谢你，让我重新振作。。也让我领悟到一些曾忽略的道理。。

就算上帝把门关上了，天使还是会把窗户给打开。。加油吧，有烦恼的人，加油吧，为自己理想而奋斗的人，加油吧，为爱情而困挠的人。。大家。。我们加油吧~

21-06-2011 dinner ^^

Yesterday night went to Japanese restaurant with tofu and ate the most delicious teriyaki chicken don ^^ eee... super yummy and nice ^^ arr~~ But I didn't took any pictures of the food.. TT can't post here... sob sob...
After finish eating our dinner we went to have a walk in sunway~~ And I bought the anime which I've been looking for years.. ^^ after that we went back to the garden.. but this time we don't even dare to get off the car cause is super dark.. TT (haha I'm the one who refuse to go down the car) So we sat inside the car and chit chat  ^^ ............ then......... hmhmhm...... go back home le XD hahahaha

hahah First time see how stubborn tofu can be.. hahaha XD but is super cute when he start to act stubborn.. hahaha ^^ But so sad can't see tofu's shy face... haiya... miss it already... XD haha love you ^^ muacks XD

Ps: Some feelings better keep to myself ^^ store it safe and sound ^^ hehehe

Dinner ^.^

Dinner ^.^ cant wait... ^^ hahahahaha tomight going to sunway to eat... erm.... donno where hahahaha but is around sunway la ^^ hahahaha WILL update this blog After dinner hahaha XD muacks ^^

If you read anything wrong in this blog hehe tell me k XD haha

hehehehehe XD sorry for my blog readers~~ hahaha I always post something wrong here...
I mean the wrong words and grammar XD not the content oh XD hahaha paiseh paiseh XD hhaha

Our first meet after we together XD ♥♥♥

18th June.. all I can say is my scariest and happiest day ^^

Before we went out and meet I killed my father's precious baby bird.. I watch it fly to the ceiling fan and knocked it then it follow the fan turning flow turn for 1/3 and hit the wall.. TT I can't believe what I saw.. I run to bird and looking at it... struggling and it eyes slowly close.. TT I broke down and cry out loud.. All the people thought I was afraid of father.. but I was afraid and it was scary because I am the one who killed it.. TT murderer... huhuhu TT  But after I went out and go meet tofu... he told me not to be sad cause not my fault.. TT but but... that scene keep appear right in front of my eyes... TT Tofu.... huhuhu... 

On the very first date, Tofu is late T^T... But lucky I am patient blek XD but his reason is reasonable.. so is ok la ^^ hehe When he reach he trick me TT suddenly pop out from behind.. I get shocked.. and I bet he think I was cute cause I can't even see him... TT hahaha then we walk and find place to fix the laptop.. hahaha  I think is a payback to him for being late? I keep bring him walk round and round nia.. XD hehe But finally we settle down and he start help me to fix my laptop ^^ It was fast while repairing it (but now the laptop die due to grandma house plug voltage TT) After that we walk one round in sunway pyramid then he fetch me back to kelana jaya station.... oh yea before that we went to the park and have a chit chat walk walk play here and there too ^^

Being with him really gives me a lot of  "first time" experience.. For the first time he hold my hands.. and my face turns red and heart beat getting faster and faster... I wanted to let go of his hands.. but I wanted him to hold nia... T^T so complicated the feeling... but is good ^^ hahaha 

For the first time I met a person like him... no wonder at the first time I thought he was interesting.. I guess there really is some kind of fate which attracts me to go for him... lalala XD

For the first time walking at the park is so much fun XD hahaha I really act like a so po in front of him... jump hop.. keep guji him.. ^^ hahaha and why he so fast can know my weak point... T^T even my best friend take 2 months to know it nia... first meet him he already know... TT huhuhuhuhu

Just read tofu reborn blog XD since he wrote about me then I wrote about him la ^^ hahaha To me he is always pure and important... Although he keep saying he is not pure and asking me why he is pure ... but haha I also don't know why I felt he was pure and kind ^^haha I remember The first time we start talking is when I said he was interesting (Don't think too much oh that time no feeling the nia.. =.=llll hhaahahaha) but after that slowly slowly we talk more and more and our feeling get deeper and deeper.. hehe ^^ kesian is that when he confess I refuse nia.. hahaha but later only accept^^ coz due to my ex... ^^ but thanks to tofu..he really make me think that I am not alone.. and there is someone who willing to listen and help me when I was down..  He also make me realize there is a lot of precious things which I keep ignore.. ^^ love you and take care k.. good luck in your new life ^^ erm... erm.. Can I take part in your new life too? xounds ike confessing lalalala hahahaha XD 

okie.. before other friends read till vomit haha better stop the lovely dowey thing.. XD tadaa XD

就是要有你们 XD

有人说过，出外靠朋友~~ ^.^
有人说过，有很多朋友就代表你很出名。。=。=
朋友多，但能谈心得连一个都没有。。就算有几出名都没用。。
我的朋友不多。。可以说很少。。但知己的还算有几个~~
chow chow， 一位很爱欺负我的知己。。但也是影响我很多知己XD
ying lao po~~ 第一位，让我觉得有罪恶感的知己。。但也是让我领悟没有你们这班知己我会崩溃的女人 XD
christ lao po, 第一位把我冲垃圾桶拉起来的知己。。也是我欣赏的女人~~ XD
chili padi.. 第一位话最多的知己（是好的方面噢）~。。 也是我最思念的知己~~ XD
sook ying, 第一位被我伤得最深的知己。。T^T对不起。。但也是我想保护的知己。。
kean seng, 第一位男生的知己。。哈哈~~ 也是我的 satellite 知己。。他知道好多~~ XD
carol lao po第一位让我又爱又恨的知己（但爱比恨来得多）XD 也是我很疼的知己。。

幸好有他们这班知己死党。。在旁提醒和教导。。虽然有时被他们欺负到无言掉。。但也谢谢他们啦~~否则没他们在我会无聊死掉，把释放在心里然后郁闷死掉~~
爱你们~~ XD muackz XD hahaha

12 lovers' day~ (my birthday is lovers' hug day eh XD )

1月14日 Diary Day 日记情人节

新的一年的开始，对自己喜欢的人要有表白和计划，写在自己的日记本里，在心中撒下爱的种子。

2月14日Valentine’s Day 传统情人节

根据西方的传统，喜欢他就快送他巧克力，要赶快哦，因为他不一定只收到你的那块巧克力~~

3月14日 White Day 白色情人节

送于等到这一天了！他也喜欢你吗？还是他只是喜欢吃巧克力？今天就会知道了！在送出巧克力的一个月后，女生就能收到同样喜欢自己的男生送的白色糖果。吃颗糖，感觉真甜蜜！

4月14日 Black Day 黑色情人节

这个黑色可不是“黑色星期五”的黑色哦，而是杂酱面是黑色的。他吃了你送的巧克力，你尝了他送的糖，那么一起去吃杂酱面吧！在传统好味道里，两个人的心也可以连在一起。

5月14日 Yellow &Rose Day 玫瑰情人节

在一起也有一段时间了，他是真的喜欢你吗？他真的是你要找寻的那一半吗？应该表白一下啦！不好意思？没关系，你只要在今天买玫瑰给对方就OK啦！白色——一般朋友，黄色——知己，红色——爱人。你一定会送红色的。

6月14日 Kiss Day 亲亲情人节

你也手到他的红玫瑰了？我闪人。因为你们马上要kiss了！今天看见别人在kiss，不用回避，因为今天是Kiss Day。

7月14日 Silver Day 银色情人节

传统习俗是用银戒订婚，所以今天你们也去买一对，戴在手上，作为甜蜜心情的见证。

8月14日 Green Day 绿色情人节

相爱的人们成双成对地去郊游，爬山游水感受自然，就像他们要携手走过爱情一样。

9月14日Music &Photo Day 相片情人节

练了好久的情歌今天终于登场了，虽然五音不全，但是用去听就有会新的笑容！拿出相机，拍下这灿烂、充满甜蜜的笑容。

10月14日 Wine Day 葡萄酒情人节

烛光下晃动着深红的葡萄酒，爱情一样要用心慢慢的品味。

11月14日 Orange & Movie Day 电影情人节

今晚有空吗？一起去看电影吧！手牵手一起去电影院，记得买橙汁~。

12月14日 Hug Day 拥抱情人节

一年了，你们仍然相爱，你看天空飘着雪花，而你们相拥在

一起，永远也不知道寒冷……

For the first time

For the first time I feel comfortable to talk to some one about my problems..
For the first time I broke down in front of some one when I talk about my personal problems..
For the first time I decided to handle things maturely..
For the first time I wanted  person that much...
For the first time I wanted to do all my best for some one..
For the first time I balance my family and some one out just to keep them both mine...
For the first time I wanted to cook for some one.. although I' not good at it..
For the first time I get sad while missing some one..
For the first time I keep thinking what should I say or do in front of some one..
For the first time I scared this one will run away..
For the first time I'll change my bad habits.. due to some one's influence~~
For the first time and the last time, you are my only one ^^

when positive meet negative

I always give people an illusion, that I am a very optimistic, the one who never think much.. or the one who look like a fool in the crowd.. but hey don't tell me you never act like that before.. XD

But the truth is I never wanted to let people see what I am thinking or what move I am going to make next.. that is the reason why I've been acting like that..

Tofu... why you are not here so I can hug and become manja when i be with you.. i can even tell you a lot of things which I wanted to tell you in person... T^T tofu arr... me sad sad now... haizzz... Why my things always turn out this way... haizzz.... dar......

Believing that one fine day we can be together openly.. without any rejection and objection.. even without any harsh words.. I wanted to be with you... only you... TT

Recently been watching those anime with those kind of sad story In the late night... So that I can cry it out silently.. I'll get tired after I act strong in front of every people.. Without you I broke down every night.... love you really really love you...

戴上耳机的世界

在这里，随着音乐的旋律。。高潮迭起。。心情也仿佛进入了歌词所描写的某条街发生了某些刻骨铭心的事。。

随着年龄的增长，经历得也比较多，不拿别人的经历作比较。。因为根本没得比较。。别人所发生的事就向隔壁某一个城镇所发生的事，我们通常只能看到表面。。唯一的共同点应该就是当我们听起同样的歌曲时会有所感触。。我们在背后说发生的事情可能很不一样，但会有种同样的感觉。。

有时会回头看看，因为深夜里戴着耳机的世界。。总爱拉人回到过去。。回到现在逝去的记忆。。无论听到的是开心或悲伤的歌曲。。回忆还是慢慢的，一幕一幕的掀开来。。

回忆是美好的，也是伤人的。。但没有过去就没有现在雅很可能就没有未来了。。人们总是不断地回忆过去，回忆当时的快乐，甚至还伤心流泪。。但一味地回忆过去，是不会看到未来的。。

过去的我不算很好，也不算坏。。但经历了很多。。感谢我的过去，让我有勇气的慢慢从现在冲向未来~~虽然有时累了，戴上耳机逃避一些问题会舒服点。。但最后一定要记得脱下来，继续面对。。 =）

其实她有多好？我都不懂。。为什么一个又一个的会爱上她？
是我在嫉妒吗？哈哈。。我都不懂。。我对她又爱又恨。。但爱还是比恨来得多。。
现在回想。。她为何值得我去爱？我也搞不清楚。。我也不懂。。
你这个女人。。哈哈哈哈~~为何那么地吸引人~~

不懂该放什么题目好。。XD

不懂为什么。。夜深了，自自然然的自己会想很多。。
每一个人对我说的话，当时我一定是不在意的那种。。
可是到了深夜，回想起来。。怎么他们会对我说出那种话呢？他又代表些什么？
他们的一举一动，又有何意？

是我老了吗?才开始想多了？
是经验？让我有种害怕的感觉?
在人前，讲话时要三思？
我变了。。以前刚刚变得我打死都不承认。。
现在。。哈哈~~我变了。。
变得是好是坏？我回答不了。。这要看你怎么去看我了。。

PS: 豆腐他到了~~希望一切顺利~~他在这里的新人生。。希望能抹灭掉它过去的痛苦^^豆腐~~加油~~不要熬夜哦~~XD

praying... everything will be smooth and safe... take care... be safe k tofu

Woman!!! =.=llll

No offend but... please... If I didn't offend you and respect you so please don't offend me... @.@!!! I'm now with who is none of ur business.. and What I love is depends on my decision.. If you got the problem with it than just say u don't like.. but not telling me I'm not suppose to like/ love it ok... =.=llll or telling me what kind of bad thing gonna happen... -.-lll human u not my parent... u are just a tiny little friend I have only.. =.=lll Some more is not that close oso... =.=lll

Here is the offend part for you -.-lll.....You don't have the right to deserve anything.. coz all you know is just to complain.. This not good and that not right.. =.=llll What i mean is.. you only see the surface but not the inner... That is why you miss out everything nice and good.. Stop complaining all the goods run to other people.. and left the bad follow you.. Go re-look at yourself then only speak out loud about ur so call "complain"... =.=llll 

你是爱睡觉的人吗？哈哈~~我就是典型爱睡觉的人XD

爱睡懒觉的人―――不会随便爱上一个人。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很专一又很滥情。一旦真正喜欢上一个人就会很致命，一直把你牢记在心。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很容易被感动。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很敏感，看似什么都不计较、不细心，其实是在包容你，所以会装作什么都不知道。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很正义，讨厌虚伪、谎言，讨厌欺骗。

爱睡懒觉的人———为了让别人好过，喜欢用谎言但绝对没有心眼不图你什么东西，是善意的

爱睡懒觉的人―――吃软不吃硬，要知道爱睡懒觉的人脾气很硬，不会允许别人的不信任和挑战。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很重感情，只要是真心认定的朋友，都会真心对待。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很浪漫，最讨厌软弱拖拉的人，更讨厌自以为是的人。

爱睡懒觉的人―――不习惯主动和别人套近乎。

爱睡懒觉的人―――决定要做的事，就会坚持到底。

爱睡懒觉的人―――可以看着喜欢的人转身离开，望着他的背影泪流满面，却不敢开口挽留。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很开朗，不开心的时候会故意隐藏自己，总是想把自己装的更独立更坚强。

爱睡懒觉的人―――其实没那么重的生理洁癖，只是精神洁癖更严重。

爱睡懒觉的人―――表面坚强，嘴巴硬，其实内心很容易受到伤害。

爱睡懒觉的人―――总是很任性和小孩子气的固执，即使是错，下次还是固执。

爱睡懒觉的人―――很胆小又害怕失败，但表现出来的都是强悍的一面。

爱睡懒觉的人―――生气的小事很快就会忘记，不记仇。

爱睡懒觉的人―――别人对自己的好会铭记于心，有恩必报。

爱睡懒觉的人―――不善表达自己的情感，所以常常用沉默取代表达。

爱睡懒觉的人―――最不能接受朋友的不信任、出卖和背叛。

爱睡懒觉的人―――现在的生活很迷茫，找不到出口，但对未来坚定而充满希望。

Random again XD chapter 9 Cant wait

Cant wait...
Cant wait to move to puchong...
Cant wait my tofu come to puchong...
Cant wait to fin my internship
Cant wait... @.@!!!
Cant wait..

Cant wait to have my own room hahaha finally XD hahaha
Cant wait my tofu come here in this monday.. ^^ so happy but yet worried..  T^T worried later cant see tofu T^T huhuhuhuhu
Cant wait to fin my intern... haha and fin my diploma then i can go out work @.@!!!!

haizz.... if my family is not that strict i believe I'll be easy to see tofu ade... T^T huhuhuhuhu but if i go out work that time hopefully got more free time to see tofu T^T... but now i think everybody suppose to concentrate in work gua? But scared tofu that people who find tofu to work at their place is a liar... eee.... donno leh felt like they not that good... eeee... start think too much again... pray everything will be fine for my tofu T^T hopefully that guy is not a bad guy.. or a liar who lied to my tofu T^T

hahahah... somebody wanted to pay me for telling fortune eh ^^ hehehe super happy.. I used to love tarot cards and tell people their fortune when i was young.. hahaha that is also Why I keep looking at horoscope and fortune stuff.. XD hahahah but I never thought there really got people who wanted to pay me for telling them their fortune eh !!!! Although Last time I play for fun and they say is so "Zhun" but I thought they were just joking and try not to hurt my feelings.. but but.. hahaha Somebody want to pay me for fortune telling eh XD

hmmm

有些话不用说出口心已能体会~~
有些事不用你去做,我已帮你办得妥当了~~
^.^很开心有你，很幸运能认识你。。
love you XD haha

Don't know what to post le~~ lala
Tofu~~ faster reactive back ur blog oh.. waiting waiting here XD haha

Random again XD chapter 8 commercial XD

hahahaha XD this erm erm XD 18 + hahaha XD

hehehe so romantic XD hehe

 canon 718 XD hehehe u make me smile le XD

^^

wahahahahahahahahaha XD

@.@!!!

haha that is all XD hahahah

Tofu ^^

This post is for those people who want my tofu... =.= Although don't know who they are.. but...
TOFU IS MINE
So don't you dare take away my beloved tofu ^^ 
XD

Never felt this before... but the look of his eyes is full of hatred, sensitive, and guessing..
While he guessing, he always made up stories on his own and blindly stick to it... and 100% confirm on it..
I can't deny that what he think and what he made up is not true..
But the thing I'm doing doesn't affect my studies...
I tried to become good... do the domestic chores which I refused to do last time..
And I less arguing just to prove that I am right or prove anything..

The eyes he have is full of anger and fierce.. just like a hawk's eyes..
When we be with together he never spoke to me..(ekkhemm.. this words too harsh... should be today he purposely didn't spoke to me while we are in the room.. T^T ) even though I purposely dig out some issue or topic to talk with him... he just ignore.. It hurts.. really hurts..

Now I know what is his feeling... Cause I do the same thing to him while I was rebellious that time...
But I tried to bond things with him.. Don't know why.. still can't work.. What should I do?
sometimes he is super friendly to me.. And some times he is so cold to me... even seeing me as transparent..

Am I really suppose to be in this family? I asked myself this question many times  since I was young.. but up till now I still asking me myself the same question..
Second sis is incredibly hard-working.. And little sis is the youngest.... As for me... with or without me seems to be not a big issue... haizz... keep thinking this.. haiz haiz

A bit no mood... watch anime.. haizz..

Random again XD chapter 7

The things I don't wanted it to come it finally come.. Parents are having argument because of the house again.. but thanks to one of my aunty from mother side who willing to lend us the money for buying a new house.. but the thing is Father wanted to go to our house and mother wanted a place just nearby here... I don't really know what to do at that time but to hide myself while bathing.. hopefully everything can run smoothly... So that there is no argument at all.. and hopefully I can have my own room XD blek.. but this is second issue~~

I wanted to go out and work work work.. allowance 1000+ or 2-3000++ this is better la.. haha XD but where to find such a price? huhuhuh... my friend invite me to singapore to work is much more better than malaysia.. coz of their money rate is way much more higher than malaysia.... hmm... donno arr... Tofu~~ how you think? XD

I always compare Tofu and the past few I have... At first I will keep saying who is better than who... but yesterday, I knew tofu is the best~~ although this tofu is hard to get... coz too far... but this tofu give me warm and peace XD hahaha thank you tofu~~ love you tofu very much~~ XD

I got a new diary book XD hahaha but is actually a diary that used to be my lil sis's book... but anyway she abandon the book so i take lo XD hahaha don't waste ma XD hehe tata adiyos~~ that's all folks~~

Ps: tofu tofu~~ email me asap oh bout the portfolio and ur pic XD hahaha

My biggest secret... in codes~~ so it is not revealed XD hahahaha lol...

Eye Tsenaananail Benaearlooteyeveckear eyetalice

Denaullear taliceeuroter seaeurotermarear runeearanaseaeuroternail eye looteuroterveckear seaearxeye....

seamar talicehoxanatalice kaxeeyenaildena... @.@!!!!

The emotions that I can't control for last few nights.. now seems to be calming down again...
Relaxing~~ loving~~

教我。。

人们往往都爱逃避现实。。看来我也有这样的想法了。。虽然有这种想法，但却又做不出逃避现实这种东西，情绪好乱好乱。。逃避是解决不了事情的，但我又能如何去解决呢？

在现实里，人们会不断的打击你的信心，他们会不断地要你放弃。。但已经紧紧握住不放手的东西，怎么可能会放弃。。想说把他们的话当做是个建议，就当作是旁观者清。。但，他们的每一句，都在打击我的信心。。

我深信他是真的，我深信他就是那个了。。我也深信我们会是由未来的。。今天听到了好多好多打击我的话。。说我不会看，不会想，只会鲁莽做事和决定。。说我太急着去找。。因为怕空虚。。其实当时我真的被他们的话带了进去。。也想我是不是怕空虚才这样。。后来，都不是。。我是不会去决定这件事就因为我怕空虚，需要人陪。。也不是他对我好而我觉得这样子实对他的一个回报。。更不是我为了要忘记过去才选择这样。。而时我真的真正的决定他就是了。。

他们是怕我痛苦，怕我以后会更加的辛苦所以才不断的打击我。。要我放弃。。我不怪他们，也不觉得他们说的完全是没站在我的立场看。。他们是关心，才会这样。。我都懂。。但这个感觉太强，所以才会选择取向一个完美的方法去解决。。我不吵，不闹，他们要的。。他要的。。我两边都给。。没了他们，我活不了。。没了他我也活不了。。

神啊~我是不是太自私？你才用这种方式来考验我？我是不是前世作孽太深或上半辈子非常地不孝所以你才弄一个这样的问题给我。。

target loli~~~

huuhuhuhu i wan money~~~~ i wan this i wan that~~ hahahaha XD brown loli~~ hehehehe super nice~~ earth tone... my fav arrrr~~~ XD

this is super cute~~~` XD

Y i feel like loli shoe gonna cost a lot... XD hahahaa

hmmm... mayb i don say i gonna loli~~ hahaha coz due to carol lao po knowledge~~ those loli people very strict on loli costume de wor... hahahaha so i might be the free lance loli~~ hahaha XD half half de... XD no budget arrr what to do XD

Random again XD Chapter 6 18+

Blek this is a random gallery~~ XD all pics~~ wahahaha XD Some content might not suitable for under age kids~~ so Don't say I didn't warn you ar~ XD

 Her hair... T^T I wanted to dye this hair T^T huhuhuhu but due to my skin tone... huuh cant T^T

eeee.... eeee..... eeee.... her bag~~~ eeee...eee.. XD

eee...eee...eee...eeee... the scenery @.@!!! so fantasy fantasy~~ arr~~ like like

If i were a boy~~~ @.@!! I sure sure sure sure xxxxxxx XD ekhemmm ekkhemm XD hahaha

hmmm.... sexy??? hot???  is just two person touching... XD hahahahaha one boy one girl.. touch.... erm... eee... yea is super sexy eeee....

I don't really love dog~~ but haha this is super cute XD hahaha

某商业街上，小龟被装进药袋中制成钥匙兜售！小龟还是活着的。小贩说能活1-3个月。
5块钱一个！害命吧！多少小生命就此终结了。动物生命就该如此低贱吗？ 希望强大的面子书能有人帮忙呼吁制止这类买卖，救救这些可怜的小家伙们。 没有买卖就没有伤害了!

Recently my intership company is doing this mas airline refreshment branding exercise.. And today just finish the presentation and I learnt a thing that Ang mo lang see our mas airline logo they think it is a jelly fish.... =.=lll XD

girl.... if u want to make ur body looks hot by using photoshop... please learn well and use well k... @.@!!!


 hahaha that is all folks XD gotta go sleep~~ nite nite~~ hope guys u had a dream about ur love or a sexy gal~~ XD hahaha but yeah... where did the word sexy come from... and how u define sexy? hahaha I sure got many many different definition for sexy~~ XD

Random again XD chapter 5

Thanks to suh mei... suddenly came to work this morning and check up on me.. yea although I felt ok le about the past problems~~ but thanks for the care mei~~ love you very much.. For the first time I have a friend who will come and said I read your blog ade.. "got anything to share to me? Feel free to say ur feelings out loud to me.. it will feel better d..." I really touched that time.. thank you mei.. love you..

Dar, don't know why suddenly I got a feeling that our relationship should not be like one of those underground relationship.. but Parents reject.. and refuse... T^T... What if I tell them "mom papa~~ mei mei~~ I pak tor with kenan le ^^" haizzz.... they sure will have a big storm/ argue again.. don't want that to happen and Don't even wanted to lose dar.. Because dar really got a lot of thing a lot a lot of thing that i love and like.. even admire dar too.. that is why... I appreciate dar more than anyone else.. love dar more and more~~ And dar change me more and more also.. the childish me gone le~~ haha dar u read this sure say no de.. haha but really it is gone le.. I used to escape and turn things worst when I deal to problems.. but now change le.. I think more.. and look more further..

Lao po (nicole ye ying) huhuhu u missing for a while already... miss u nia.. Don't know why didn't contact you more jor... huhuh due to we work in different place? huhuhuhu But what if lao po u go back to china @.@!!! huhuh noooo then ma cant even contact liao T^T huhuhu

Laopo (Carol) You arrr... and mui (west) go do your revision k... big test is coming next week for carol lao po.. and spm is coming soon for west mui... both of you~~ good luck and all the best k... less on fb la... for your own good ok.. @.@!!! you two arr... take care oso arr.. don keep on read read read and forgot to take care of your health.. later sick jor (choi choi choi) then hard to continue revision de k.. muacks both of you and take care...

Life is short... I never realize that actually.. Sooner or later I will die.. either is in a bad condition or a good condition.. they said 2012 is coming.. we all gonna die.. if that so.. please let me die with my dar.. XD but choi choi choi~~ 2012 wont have anything happen de~~ pray hard.. but as always.. when I was young I knew that the end of the world will come while I am still living in this world.... But hope is not la... pray pray... I only 20 T^T let me experience more first can annot? T^T

Gonna move soon.. but first will renovate the house at puchong.. then only move to there.. My family keep on scold "sei lou ye" haizz.. he... I need to respect oso.. because without him.. I wont be in this world.. haizz.. He always said he had no money left no money left.. but always doing big projects.. haizz.. don't want to think his money fly to where.. But we all knows, after she died.. sooner or later he sure sell our house de..

Chapter 5~~ ends here~~ hahaha chapter 6 is random pic oh XD hahaha shhh 18+++ XD hahahaha nah nah~~ for those under age readers don't complain that I didn't warn u all arr... XD

我标不出题来。。

我是不是很糟糕？才惹来这么多的反感？我是不是太自私？才惹来那么多的不满？

当你们转身离开，我的泪也同时慢慢地掉下来。。在你们面前我应该很糟糕吧？在你们眼里的我应该也是叛逆的。。在你们眼里的我，很讨人厌吧？是吗？我做的事，说的话。。你们都一一反对。。坚持我是错的。。第一句下来，就已经是很凶的语气。。我辩驳，就我错。。我不辩驳，默默。。静静地在那边听你们的道理。。你们又说我没听进去。。我有在听，不想回答。。你们又叫我回答。。我生气了，暴躁了。。你们又说我变了。。好。。我接受。。我现在慢慢的改变，你们却视而不见？还是在你们眼里，我已经是那样的人？不会变？我不问不听？在你们眼里，我是局外人吗？我有在听，也在想。。所以开始沉思。。你们就说我不去理会这些重要大事？只管自己。。可能，我真的只管自己。。可能我真的太自私。。所以导致这些问题存在。。

想必你们对我也心淡了。。但我还是会关心的。。我会尽量改掉我的坏习惯了。。
写不下去，也不懂该如何写下去。。

Random again XD chapter 4

This time is not random topic XD but is words from me to random people..

These days I've been working with my little chow chow.. haha suh mei la XD These days can see she is a bit down and unhappy due to some of her personal reasons.. haizz.. Although she always looks like a tough girl on the outside.. but still as what she said.. she is just a girl.. sure will have be weak on sometime.. I can't say i can fully understands how she feels.. cause situation we met is different.. but all I wanted to say to you is that No matter what happen... Ji Mui never leave you d.. after the rain will still be rainbow... If things will not stay there for you then let it be... What is meant to be gone.. then let it be... muacks love you~~ and I'll support you...

These days, I've been disconnect with people like My lao po~~ lou po~~ chili padi and carol lao po XD You guys still fine ma?
Lao po you work there fine ma? Everything ok? still healthy? Your skin got any symptoms of allergic? Working place still ok? people there treat you well?
Lou po~~ you at there still the same ar? Your ekhemm.. treat you still de same? no change? wanna go out with you guys... Chili Padi... U really like ninja.. missing liao @.@!!!! eee.... wanna see you arr... huhuhu T^T
Carol lao po~~ next week is your big test le.. How is your study le? At there still same old? Your ekkhemm.. hahaha how things going on le? XD

Haizz sorry for disconnecting with you guys.. I found that I really can disconnect to a person completely.. @.@!! which some of the people might be hating me cause of this.. sorry... I tried not to be like this le.. T^T paiseh sorry gomenasai.... miane... maafkan saya T^T

Tofu arrr~~ 想看你又看不到。。T^T tofu ar tofu... T……T cf 快快到。。december 快快到~~我们就能见面了。。但是但是。。haiyo... paiseh paiseh nia ~~ tofu you there ok ma? working still fine? huhu i wan waffle T^T hahaha long time no eat le XP take care oh.. muaks~~ XD hahaha