new life new things new everything new~~

Haiyo... what the heck is going on? somehow i feel lonely..>< alamak... haizz.. who called me turn on that stupid "love engine" now i am all alone.. kinda lonely leh...>< haiyo... don't know what to do..

Haiyo...>< books... save me please... >< these days kinda hard for me to focus on my work... i can even sleep when i open my fav book to read.. gosh...>< help... somebody knock my head please... i need to.. seriously need to wake up><

hahaha school open day... nooo... exam week and assessment week...>< work.. still a lot of them...>< argh.. and i still playing sdo.. blek :P lalalala~~ i can't help it la.. don't know what to do... i know i should stick my head on my work.. but how? sdo program is just next to my work file...>< alamak...

 

Don't know y.. i felt something strange here... of course.. there is a big stupid head watching me typing, how am i suppose to be natural? ah qing ar... siam la.. know u still looking at it.. and hit me.. >< pain de leh.. u know dat? huhuhuhhuhuu..... anyways.... is super awkward for a person to stare at what u are typing now.. so tata... next time blogging again..>< hahaha love you^^ muackss~~ don't stalk me la~~ :P

ps: anyways still.. lalalalalala~~ finally u are out of my world~~ :P  see how i fly without you^^

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 from: bobo i am superwoman~~ lalalala <3<3

 

I should have learn to be angry at a person.. u are nothing but bullshit to me..

             just not to let people think that i am talking bout them... the person i should be angry of is the person that hurts me badly.. and i still said thank you to them... i was trying to be kind.. but useless.. u.. i never met a person like this before.. in front of you he can said everything nice.. but behinds u he can make story to back stab at you and make he looks kind and nice..i had enough.. is a wise choice for me to end all those stupid thing with you.. should have forgot you.. i should have..
              stupid me.. i still missing you after i broke with you... thought u will be at least sad for a bit.. hah.. i guess i am wrong.. Micheal and steffany said it right.. u are nothing but bullshit.. describe u in a good way is that u don't know how to handle love or u are new in these things.... in a bad way is that u are a totally asshole who just try to play the jerk in this situation.. once the person knows the true u.. u will just leave slowly and target a new one..
               Yup thanks to you.. i am much more wiser... and much more clearer..

               you sure said i am cruel.. after reading this.. i am fine with it.. cause yes.. i am.. and this is wat u teach me to be.... 你做初一，我做十五罢了。。

               别想以为我会在想你了，别想以为我还会对你好，你死你贱，自己拿来的。。他妈的，作那么多的故事来作践我的形象，你去当导演好过。。别想对我好，你所作所为，我看在眼里。。你也心知肚明。。明明是自己的错还赖在别人身上，明明是自己变心还给我埋怨，明明是没有的事还说成有。。你这人很厉害，我都佩服得五体投地了。。要我来教你做人处事吗？做人最好留底线，踩过头了就别怪别人对你不好。。

To: suh mei

thanks for everything u gave to me... time, friendship, care... everything..

haiyo... donno what tot type... but really, thanks for the thing you had give me.. and i am kinda bad to you also.. at first i don't really like you... but after that day... i regret ade... really... i never felt that bad before.. is you the one ho make me realized that i am that awful at the first place..

Really sorry for my bad attitude.. ithink u are not the first one who let me treat like this before.. guess that i am not a good person.... but really sorry...>< sorry for my careless, sorry for everything i did wrong to you.. but in the mean time, thank you... Thanks for your kindness... which makes e felt warm... thanks for your sweetness which makes me smile~~ :P thanks for your care which makes me melt^^ lol.. <<< something sounds wrong...>< hahaha :P but anyway... i really like you and love you << as a friend^^

Thank you for everything.. and please take care k.. ^^ love yea.... my second lao po in coll^^ hehehe

To: Ye ying

我没在想你哦~~lalala~~

                  只想在这里告诉你，我真的真的想你了~~你又会中国。。huhuhu~~伤心了咯~~哈哈~~
                  但也谢谢你，平时陪我打打闹闹，陪我吃饭，陪我到处走，帮助在困难时的我，陪我度过不开心的时候。。谢谢你~~
                  同时也对不起你，我那么的不善解人意，我那么的自私，我那么的坏，我那么的忽略你，我那么的笨，你讲了几百篇我都不懂你在讲些什么。。我那么的迟钝，我那么的不会看脸色，我那么的粗心大意，我那么的鲁莽，他妈的。。。哈哈~~我不是很好。。对不起。。
                   真的真的，你让我觉得有朋友真好，你让我觉得我能卸下我所谓的武装。。因为你的直率，你的敢作敢言~~让我还满自在的^^很高新认识到你^^
                   我在学院的第一任老婆^^xixi

写到我都忘了主题是什么了。。

突然觉得自己还满像秋天。。

          看起来感伤，但却给人无穷的快乐，人们玩着已凋零的落叶，看着那缤纷色彩的橘色，棕色。。看着那柔暖的阳光，却又飘着让人毛骨悚然的冷风。。好像在提醒着人类们，冬天来了，多穿点，别被那风冷到自己了。。

           曾经有人说，像秋天的女人是最好的。呵呵，没夸自己的意思。。但我也这么觉得。。呵呵，好像在夸着自己~~psps~~ 像秋天的女人，即坚强，由柔弱；既温暖，有刚烈；用他们那细细的声音提醒别人要小心，要照顾好自己。时不时都能看到她的感伤，好像是在担心些什么，好像在对什么事而伤感。。

            有人说若是遇到了像秋天的女生，请留住她。。她们经历的，经过的，是你无法想象的。。所以我是吗？哈哈哈~~自己觉得蛮像的。。但因该没有吧~~想东想西的~~lalala XD

            曾经的我很单纯，曾经的我很会胡思乱想，曾经的我自会为自己想，曾经的我就觉得自己最惨。。可是当自己停下来，看看那颗大大的树，看看那小小的蚂蚁，爬呀爬的。。个子虽小，但怕得还满快的，当队友从树上跌下来。。下面的蚂蚁就会扛他回去。。但上面的就置之不理，继续前进。。那么自己是站在那边的呢？

             又看过鱼睡觉吗？一定没有，因为人们都不知道当时开着眼睛的遇到地实行着还是睡了。。那么鱼它不动就是睡了啊~~你又怎么知道呢？可能它累了想休息一下~~也很可能她在等另一只鱼呢~~鱼是不会闭起眼睛的，可鱼是要睡觉的~~ 那它是几时几点睡觉的呢？那我也回答不了~~ 人们包括我在内都看表面，其实里头的玄机就只有当事人懂了。。我是时候学学多听别人的东西~~多听听当事人的心声，而不是听别人的流言蜚语~~但真的能做到吗？呵呵，我都不懂~~

              有时过伤心时，狂奔吗？我没有，但很想试试看，是不是像戏里的那些情节一样？会让人喘不过气的在最后停下来，然后看着天大喊就没事了。。还是会坐在一个角落里愣着，让泪慢慢流就会没事了？我现在是伤心吗？我现在在干什么？我一时得开心，转过头就上了。。有人来了，又装没事的。。是掩饰吗？那拿到这就是掩饰吗？难道狂奔的那些主角，是释放？我真的很想试试，看看真的会不会真的释放。。

                我和你的遇见是在秋天，在没有四季的国家里的秋天认识的。。事缘份？拉我们一起？还是甜的一个玩笑。。当时我们是为了爱情点头说要到永远，怎么现在这句话却说给了另一个人听了？是承诺？还是玩笑？秋天，是我的最爱，也是我的要害。。我怕冷，怕。。真的怕。。但又喜欢，哈哈~还满犯贱的~~ 我这女人，是时候该醒醒吧。。

                家人，朋友都是我的支柱,但我又偏偏不是很会对人好。。不知怎么对人才算好。。不知我这样子做会不会伤害了人。。有时沉默，但却又好想好想，真的好想想三八的诉说~~ 有时我能，但最后就胡思乱想了。。我会不会很长气啊？我会不会很讨厌啊？对不起，若我伤害了你。。对不起若我忽略了你。。对不起，若我背叛了你。。对不起，若我让你讨厌~~ 还是爱你们的。。